About the long break actually I was struggling with the sin living in me. And that truly set me apart from God. I chose to followed what I wanted or what I desired even though I know that it won’t please God. But i ended up doing it. I felt like I myself have set a barrier between me and God. Even I know what caused this problem, I still asked God why I couldn’t feel him as how I would feel in the past. And that was when I started to welcome the “limitations” into my life once again. I was more into the world which made me forget the possible one who had changed me, helped me, healed me and even danced with me in my time of trouble to show that no problem can surpasses him. My life was getting more difficult and all obstacles seemed impossible to overcome because I was blinded by my own sin.  After my first time preaching to the public I realized “how would I ended up there talking to the public?” This once was an impossible thing for me and all I could do was only imagine. I now know that God is always there working very hard for every second in my life but it was sin that blinded me. I am not sure you have experienced something like this before, but I want tell you that sin can really block you this great view of the universe. And you may not let it controls you for too long. I also want to encourage you to keep on fighting and you will eventually overcome it because by fighting with it, God is actually now on your side. And always remember that God never ever rejects you. It is you who first reject and lock him out.

Enough of practicing driving on my own. It’s time for a driver license. Few days before the test, my mate did say its impossible for me to past the test as this possibly my first time and also i had not had any practical lessons before hand, and adding to it, my car is pretty much not too fancy enough to past this test My mate basically said that its impossible for me to pass otherwise its a miracle. That created a bit of discouragement but my heart was pounding hardly saying that “with God everything is possible and i will show you”.

On that day, i went to the test venue with confidence, i also have a cross figure right beside the meter gauge to remind me that God is always there. Honestly i was a bit nervous when the test started as i have found out that i have got a very uneasy instructor sitting beside me. Through out the test i had found it was very difficult to understand his fast speaking. Few times i misunderstood him. I eventually asked him to speak a bit slower. But the man took that as an offense and started bombarding me with his negative attitudes. I helplessly tried to agree with him and proved that i was not trying to offend him. But it turned out to be a much more stressful situation. I decided to pull over and talked to him and agreed with his way of doing things. Guess now my total right to do is to pray to God rather than arguing as I also think that he might soon call up and fail me straight away.

At the end of the driving test, he asked me to improve few areas. My brain was blank and i didn’t try to listen to him with expectation of a pass.

However, God never fails me. Apart from almost all the negative things about my driving spoken out, the only simply sentence that came into my ear at the end was…

“your license is issued today!”

Today, i have a great chance to stand up and tell my mate after he said it was really a miracle that i managed to pass, I simply told him that It’s really God!

So once again i really encourage you all to always have  Jesus accompanies you. Even in the darkest valley, he will always lead you and help you break through all things you think its impossible.

Because all i know during my driving is i did pray a lot for his rescue.

…Just open your heart and he will faithfully fill you with his amazing love…

last year, I have actually grown up a lot. I believe you are an intelligent provider and you have been setting up paths for me to walk through those mists. So many times i was out of tracks, so many times i was tempted to give up. But i always have that solid corner in my heart, the place where you my God are dwelling helping me fight and wrestle alongside with me through those difficult times. I admit that i am weak, and once i open my heart more to you, I could feel that I am even weaker and weaker. Because now whatever sins i have committed, they seems hurting me more than before. Lord, I really ask you to help strengthen me and equip me with whatever i need to help me grow stronger and won’t be so easily let astray. I ask you that this year i will grow up more towards you.  Besides please help my family and other families to get to know you. And through all miracles and healing let them come to know you.

. . . forgive me for every second that i don’t think of you . . .

. . . and again i am already another step closer to you . . .

. . . Thank you . . .

Now the second question raised, if so then wouldn’t we have more than one God since we have God the father and God the son?

Yes, there are more than one objects involved or bound together otherwise the relationship would never ever happen likewise the relationship between our parents and us. The difference is we are formed humanly (the formation of cells  which determined by genes) while Christ was specially formed by the spirit of God (holy spirit).

Our parents are humans, we are born as human and they choose  to call us their son…

The father is God, Jesus was born as God and God chose to call Jesus his son…

But Jesus and God are one as they work just like our body organs in which all have to fit and sit together in place to keep us alive. They actually depend on each other.

1.) The holy spirit won’t work by itself.

2.) Also without holy spirit Christ wouldn’t become flesh living on earth.

3.) Also the one who sent him was God.

and i believe these all work together spiritually as one true God.

∞ is actually beyond my understanding…

For our struggle is not against flesh and blood,

but against the rulers, against the authorities,

against the powers of this dark world

and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.

Ephesians 6:12

…then why should i worry..

thanks to all my friends, brothers and sisters’ prayers as well..

prayer rocks!!!

and there always be reason(s) for someone to love or to be loved.

for me i love God because he healed my sickness, and he is always there whenever i am alone or helpless. And this is my reason for me to love God. But thinking about it over again, is that a conditional love? …

You love him/ her…

…I(me) love God…

because they all can fulfill our needs.

isn’t that a conditional love?

Is the conditional love Good?

By thinking about Boyfriend and Girlfriend situation, one says i love you because you look after me and take care of me very well better than others.. so what if one day they separated? how can that kind of love last? because that need is no longer met…

even if my situation, if one day God stops helping me, wouldn’t i stop loving him as well?

and this kind of love that i have, is a conditional love. The love that won’t last very long….

But if you read John 3:16 and Roman 5:8

can you find any conditional love? any promise? fulfillment?

we don’t need to fulfill anything or promise anything to God to make God loves us.

God loves us because who we are…and that love of God is always there even though we don’t know…

That love is very similar to parent’s love which is the love that needs nothing in return.

our parents love us because who we are..

and this is call unconditional love, the great love that would last…

As i said God’s love is more like a free gift, its always there. and you only have to accept it

once you do accept it you will truly experience that unconditional love of God, the love where there is no condition.

and this love will help you and make you love others unconditionally as well…

and that’s just amazing! ;P

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Lord, I really thank you for giving me and my little brother an opportunity to have time together knowing more about you last night. Thank you for softening his heart so that now he is willing to open it up and understand you more. I really believe that you my Lord have the power to change people, and now with your power, it’s stirring up everybody’s heart in my family. Especially last night with my little brother, he really believed in the testimony told by me about how God’s been raising me up and changing me during past few years. We did talk until late night, my brother said thank you for telling him this good news, then he left to his room for sleep. Once he left, I read bible as usual and was praying to God for him saying that Lord would give him salvation and let him experience the wonderful blessing from God. Not really long later, my brother came into my room again. He said that he would want to know more about this and would love me to tell him more. He said that while he was on the way to his room to sleep, he saw light flashing into his eyes. I was looking at him thinking “was that the Lord my God trying to reach him?”

Immediately he started shaking, and it got even worse when his whole body shook more violently.I without hesitation ran down to him and hugged him, I was really afraid when i felt that violent shake from his body passing down through my body. I didn’t know what caused that but i think it could be the evil spirit that’s living inside him. So i prayed to God to protect him, cleanse him and push those bad spirit away and fill him  up with holy spirit instead. After long praying, that shake still persisted, i decided to use Jesus Christ name to cast that shake away. Right afterward, that thing left him but his body still shook a bit. I put him down to sleep and cover him with my blanket. I laid on his feet hugging and continued my prayer until that thing stopped. I told him not worry or be afraid about anything because i am here and God is with me.

the most amazing thing about last night is…

just before i told you  that i was reading bible and praying.

the verse that i was reading was Isaiah 42 …

From my point of view , for human to believe in something they either first have experienced with themselves or through their faiths e.g. we don’t need to go around the earth to prove that the earth is round, instead we believe  in the teaching at our schools. This is because we have good faith in our teachers and technologies.  For me personally, it’s really hard already to believe that humans are from monkey despite the gathered evidences. What about the almighty God who is said to create this limitless universe? who is said to be be the creator of all mankind ?  I am not gonna say that he is the one and the only Lord who owns each of our lives.

But what if this could be true?…

What if he could change our lives and unveil the true purpose of living?…

What if he could turn our lives to joyful lives? …

Wouldn’t it be worthwhile for us to try or experiment that all these things i mentioned above will later be met once you submit your life to him (stay under his authority) by allowing him to control our lives. We might be spending all our lives to find the true purpose of us being here on this planet, but wouldn’t it be worthwhile for us to test the person who is said to have the key to unlock the question.

Apostle  Paul the follower of Christ once said “Test everything. Hold on to the good. Avoid every kind of evil.” (1 Thessalonians 5:23)

The Lord God also said “Test me in this, says the LORD almighty, ” and see if i will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it….” (Malachi 3:10) and many more….

As you see with his fairness,  God allows you to test him just like back in the old time you were trying to experiment something in your laboratory. See it with your own very eyes, just like what i have experienced….

if you want to start your test now then just

Let go and you will understand… please listen to the song below, it will explain.